21th August, Sunday

Last Sunday, we went to church, but not as usual, my mom got food poison, and hence she stayed at home with dark face. Well, this week, my dad caught a cough and looks so uncomfortable and so well, my mom, with an unexpressible face, with an unshakeable stand, told us not to go church. It naturally means that I would not be able to teach in the youth sunday school. I felt soooo sorry for the Wieland's as they are doing their best to keep us in the church. I am sooo disappointing them, I know so well.

The whole day, I have been feeling so strengthless, and I have to admit, it is whole week. I was grateful that I was able to accomplish something in the office yesterday so that I won't have to feel so panic in front of the managers before the course. This morning, my mom wanted to go and have blood check but we woke up so late because we didn't have to go to church as ordered by mom. Then, the whole day has been so dull and now I'm blogging. But I think I have done something pleasing my mom, I 'd washed all the clothings, not by machine, but by bare hands, and washed the toilet using the used detergent water. So well that she's our Queen, I got to obey her.

Then, how's my work now? It's hard for me to breath!! Tomorrow is Monday again, my mom got to be busy again, preparing food for her princesses ><

Crap

As always, I've been longing for the weekend to come, which indicates my off-days for the tiring week. These few days, I have been busy of tidying up my works before passing up to the hidden dragon, but unfortunately, I was not able to complete within my budgeted time, and she told me to do maximum 80 hours, so I said to myself, there would not be a problem for me to achieve that level, but then day after day, hour after hour, minute after minute, it seems I was getting closer and closer to the limit!! How could I be sooo slow, I just could not believe and she's coming back tomorrow again. I put my trust on the cute typist that she be able to complete the flawless piece of accounts before I could compile them together and send it for the first review, and the important point here is the directors will not be here starting by the early of September and it certainly means that I should speed up my pace and also in clearing off my files for storage!! That is another problem again. There are so many, almost countless things for me to do, confirmation to be chased up, finishing the file storage questionnaires, finishing the stock reportsss, and start on assisting my seniors......I almost could not focus myself on one most primary thing first. My dad always say that I'm entirely weak in arranging my schedule, and of course till now, still the same old me.

Fast Sunday, today has come. I thought today I could go and teach......and still, my mom told us to wake up earlier today to go exercise. Well, if I had been so disciplined and put the last night touching Korean movie aside, then I would have been able to wake up early to do exercise as wished and could even manage to go to church. Things just went haywire. Me and my sister just spending our sweet time watching the unfolding touching Korean movie until what time? It's close to 2 o clock. Well, I said to myself, maybe there is a maybe afterwards. Then wait, Sunday came, and I didn't prepare anything for the lesson, poor yougsters over there, they were being aborted again, by this useless crap!!!!

Well then, in the morning, of course we didn't prepare ourselves to go exercise, my mom is entirely dark faced, grilled and deep fried!! Then, another thing, my sister left herself upstairs reading book that can upright the moral characters, after having a quarrel with me, and I didn't even bother to quarrel with her. Well, I'm a crap again. I hope I could rectify these problemsss.......Things just go further like a rolling snowball, it just gets bigger and bigger, it's going to be an endless story and every finger will be just pointing on me, and the worst thing today was I spilled my entire green apple avocado juice, which my mom has prepared carefully and with love but also with dark-faced. Well, the only thing I could say about her is her mood is already not here since we didn't get ourselves ready for exercise. If I had prepared the lesson some more in advance, she'll be even over-cooked on her face!! Then, because I didn't wake up early, everything just swept from my plan!! Let's wait and see if I could even make it for the piano lesson tonight and the coming week. My heavenly father has spared me a lot of chances but I just could not satisfy his simple requirements!!!! So sad........

2 Augustine 2011

These two weeks, I have been doing February Year End estate job. It's much like a formal estate job because I got to do the estate workers' remuneration analysis. The most frustrated part is they don't tie back to the ledger, and the only I think I could do is by using most of the information from ledger rather than from the workers' payroll as computed by the client. Then, very sadly soon after I started this job, I fell sick, and very tired, everday is like dragging a dead body to office and back home, there's no livelihood in me. And plus, he really seldom speak to me, even didn't bid me when I was just by his side!! Didn't he realise roughly who was standing by his side when doing something which needs high and concentrate attention? And.......it's ok but at least a reply on the phone is expected and it's short of expectation by this sense.

Anyway, I'm always number one in my family, the most important and the most special who should be given the most love. Parents are always loving in spite of their cruelty sometimes (it's always negligible when the love is so great). My mom, because of the love she has for us, wakes up every early in the morning to prepare breakfast and even lunch for us to bring to school and office. Everytime I take this food to office, I just always want to say how much I appreciate her love towards me, and my to my dad as well, as so far in my life, I haven't done something which is so proud enough to be presented to them, regardless of the past victory I have achieved. That's why, I always could laugh with sunshine despite of anything that could make me so sad and desperate and down. This is me! Sometimes, I'm hard to be predicted, and sometimes easily cheated, and sometimes pathetique......Anyway, that's all for today.

Well, what did I do on Saturday (30/7/2011)? I cut my own hair, quite satisfied on the first try, looks a bit like octopus?!